Cash William is finally here...

So I was induced on Monday July 26,2010 because my BP was getting high and from my last pregnancy with LA we didn't want to take any chances. Jacob and I went in to the hospital at 5 am Monday morning to get checked in. By 6:30 we were all ready in our room and I was started on Pitocin. At this point I was only 1 cm dilated and 50% effaced. I had talked to my Dr about getting an epidural this time because with LA she came so fast I didn't have enough time to get the epidural because the anesthesiologist was in emergency csection. She decided that I should get the epidural right after I started my Pitocin, but guess what the anesthesiologist was in a C-Section so it would be a while. Oh man did I start to have flash backs and Oh man did I not want to go down that road again! LOL!! I wanted so badly to be able to enjoy this delivery. So we had to wait on him to get done with the surgery. At 9:20 my Dr. came to check on me and break my water. Luckily she said that she had the Anaesthesiologist outside and that after she broke my water he would come in and give me the epidural. Thank the Lord!! So at 9:20 I was still only at around 2 cm dilated. By 9:3o I had my epidural and was feeling great! 10:30 I was already at a 4. I was so happy that things were moving right along and just knew that my baby would finally be in my arms by noon!! I was then checked again at about 11:45 and was only to a 5. I had a feeling things were going to start to slow down from here since it seemed to take so long to get from 4 to 5. At 12:15 my nurse came in and said that from the monitors it looked as if Cash was finally starting to make his way down and that she would check me at 12:30 to see where I was. Less than 10 minutes later I started to feel the pressure and thought surly not. The nurse came back in and said "I need to check you now he should be here soon and lets pray that I don't see a head when I open the blanket!" (My Dr. office is about 15 minutes away and that's if there is no traffic on the freeway! And this is California!!) So thank goodness there was no head and when she checked I was at 10 and ready to push. She called my Dr at 12:25 and told her to get here asap.

This is when it hit me that I will soon be holding my baby boy. The tears started to flow as I was so excited to finally be a Mommy again but then the anxiety over LA and how she would deal with this. Is she going to hate me because I am bringing home another baby who will take some of the attention away from her? Will I love him as much as I love LA? How is it even possible to love anyone as much as I love LA? Am I going to be a good Mommy and be able to handle 2 babies? How am I going to be with my husband now since there will be hardly any alone time for us? All of the questions that I think are common when having a baby. I have always known since I was a little girl that all I ever wanted to be when I grew up was a wife and a Mommy. And now I know that is what I am supposed to be.

So the Dr. arrived at 12:40 pm and said "Thanks for holding him in for me! Now let's have a baby." I started pushing about a minute later and even though I had the epidural and really didn't feel much I did feel a lot of pressure and once I started pushing I didn't want to stop. I pushed through 3 contractions at 12:51 pm all of a sudden the most beautiful baby boy was finally in my arms. And at that moment once I laid my eyes on my little boy I knew that it was possible to love another person as much as I love LA. I knew that everything was going to be okay and THIS is how it is supposed to be! I knew that LA would love this little man and that it may take time but in the end they will not only be brother and sister but that they would be best of friends for the rest of their lives! I knew that although Jacob and I won't have that much alone time together that what little time we do have will be all that we need. And I knew that this is what God had planned for me, to be blessed with an amazing husband and father, one little crazy, non-stop talking, funny, loving little angel and one sweet perfect little baby boy. My life is now complete and I could not ask for more!!

Cash William Bouxsein
Born July 26, 2010
12:51 pm
6lbs 5 oz
18 inches long

One happy Daddy!

One happy Mommy!

One cute Big Sis!

One happy Big Sis!

One happy family!